Say goodbye

Sooooo.......

The week before we left was a pretty good one really.

Went to Swindo with Jo, Gemma and Esme. Eeeee Spent a little more than I should have, I brought shoes and DVD's and socks and a make up bag and I should have brought nothing. Yeeep that went a little wrong there instead I spent like 60 pound that I didn't have. *Blames Jo even though it wasn't her fault*

Went out for an Indian on Wednesday. We took up Half the resturant! Lol. Unfortunately our favourite waiter had a night off. But he did tell Heidi to tell us to have a good trip when she rang to confirm numbers. Aww. So yeah. It was a very good night. Went to spoons after and then home.

Thursday was a day of many goodbyes and much advice. It really felt as though we were going not for 5 weeks but forever. Everyone was just like "we're going to miss youh so much" and there was hugs all round. Anita tried to let me go early but once I'd said good bye to Helen and Shelah and mopped up ftabric conditioner it was 9 o clock anyways. Anita also understands that she's not allowed to replace me. Cos I'm coming back and being her bitch whether she likes it or not! She said it was ok cos she can't take the piss with anyone else (it is as compliment, it's just the way we work)

Friday brought a trip to ASDA early with Dad, we brought a Trade- it, The new Harry Potter game, some perfume and flowers for mum. Ended up hugging people again. And being stared at evily by Adrian. Yep things arew normal.

Went out with Heidi and Clare. We were going to go to Bath, but Clares car all bgut died in Bradford on Avon so we turned around and came back to Trowbridge. Randomly met with Laura in Gregs (she was going to come to mine later on when everyone was coming around apparently! Glad I was told about this plan!) And we walked around looking for flip flops and pj's for Heidid and Clare, me being the organise4d one who already had them. Then went to ASDA again, for someone who wasn't going to go in at all I certainly went in alot. Then back to mine. Lauras good bye was quite upsetting because she started to cry. I fucking love that girl. I mean I know how she's feeling, I felt a bit lost when they were all away for a weekend...... That was 2 days, this is five weeks. It is going to be odd without her around. We have all kind of become attatched over the past few months......

Friday night brought tantrums from my Laura cos I was playing on Harry Potter (which she will more than likely have completed by the time I'm back) and a Chinese, yep seems to be tradition to have take out when I go away.

Was debating about sleeping but decided that it'd be for the best if I did. And waited for the next morning when I would have an 11 hour flight to look forward to.

Since youv'e been gone.

Well it's been waaaaaay over a month since I updated. Yes I know I'm bad. Lol. It just hasn't been happening for me. It's strange cos I've had so much on my mind that it's seems so wrong that I haven't. Bt then it's easier to say nothing than to say something. Erm yeah.

Things have been shit between me and my dad. He's come over completely control freakish. Basically I went out one Saturday and wasn't home at 2:30 and he got "worried" He rang me 9 times in about 15 minutes. Seriously. He knows that I'd be perfectly safe cos I was going ot with the "grown ups" as well as the girls. But yeah. Apparently I've turned into a completely bitch who doesn't give a fuck abot her family and I'm being used by everyone I know. Especially Heidi, Clare and Laura. Oh and I have no mind of my own. And everything that I want is pointless. Yeah. Good times. Thing is he seems to think everything is ok. That he can just say that and the not mention it again becase now that he's put his opinion out there that's it end of. But it's getting harder and harder to ignore.

Quiz night was a disaster. I don't know if I mentioned we were having one but yeah. My team just ended p getting drunk and fucking off. I ended up leaving early cos I was crying. Only one person notriced I was gone. Yeah it's great to feel wanted. Yeah I haven't told the others why I actually left they just think I was tired. Blah.

I think I'm feeling a bit down at the moment. I feel like shit. I'm crying more and more. I'm putting it down to stress and over work. Hopefully all I need is a holiday. I know the shit with Dad is a big factor. But yeah.

We go next Saturday I mean wtf? I don't know where the time's gone.

So erm yeah. I don't think there much else. So yeah.