Laziness

I have been really lazy lately. Sorry. I've been really distracted and stuff. I have like a million and one dvd's and stuff to watch and stuff. I will try to do entries for the past few days but I'm not making any promises.

Bank Holiday and stuff

So yeah bank holidays are the only time I will drag myself out before 10 for work coz like its time and a half so yeah. I walked in and Caroline goes to me "can you go check that the kiosk keys are in the kiosk, ok so I did. Went back, "can you go and open up just in case Nila doesn't turn up". Fine. Nila didn't turn up all day. Not amused. I ened up really pissed off at Nila. Turns out she was ill. She rang in sick on Wednesday. Oops.

I ened up in the kiosk on my own all day, it was hectic and to make things even batter, there were four boxes of stock that we didn't have on Christmas eve. Carol came and took me off so that I could get them. Anyhoo I took about half an hour to get it down in the ware house. I got distracted. I ened up talking to Andrew and Pete and stuff. And then I couldn't find the delivery so yeah. And then Carol left. Great.

So yeah I ened up being uberly annoyed coz I was really busy and No one helped me. :( I had no one to talk to either. :(

Kerry came to see me to say that me her and Jo were going to go driving and stuff co like I'd been doing midnights and stuff so couldn't the week before. So yeah. That was cool.

Wednesday I went in did some stuff. Got taken off to go out in kiosk with Helen. Yay. I like being out there with her it's fun. Lol. Then I got moved and had to take cardboard down to the warehouse where me and Tom chatted for a while. So erm yeah.

Christmas

Got up quite early Christmas day. Laura wanted to open presents and she's not allowed to til I'm up. I got a load of stuff.

Yeah. Nan and Grandad came over for lunch and stuff. It was pretty ok.

Talked to people online, I wanted to all the time Nan and Grandad were here but I thought they might think it a bit rude if I did. Texted people, I got a text from Mr Scrooge at 1 in the morning, wtf? I talked to Sarah which I haven't done in ages either.

When they went me and Laura played the Harry Potter game thing she got for Christmas which I beat her at. Then We played the Disney game I got and I beat her and Mum coz like I'm amazing and stuff. Lol

Boxing day was pretty much nothingness. Beat people at games again. Hehe I'm amazing. Lol. Not much really happened.

Christmas Eve

Argh I woke up feeling like crap. I'd barely slept. Just not funny.

Went into work, did Nic's break. It didn't seem that busy really. Went out into the kiosk to help Helen while Nila was on her break and I didn't come back out.

Nila sent me down to the warehouse to get the stock Nina took back down on Thursday so I went down. The stuff was behind loads of cages and me and Tom couldn't be bother to move them so yeah. I was down there ages. I ened up being picked on by Tomand the guys from H and L. They were chucking stuff down the stairs from the upper level and at one point they had white spirita and Matt goes "I bet you'd probably drink this" to which Pete goes "she'll drink anything with an alcoholic value" That's a bit harsh, I won't drink some things.

Nila went home and me and Helen didn't stop all day. I served one woman who had the cutest boy ever. I was wearing reindeer antler things and he asked why my nose wasn't red. Awwwww he was so cute. Except I had to take them off, coz Pete broke them : ( well it was kind opf my fault, he was being grumpy and I thought being a reindeer might cheer him up so I put them on him and weel he has a big head and they broke.

The kiosk was busy right up untill closing. Me and Helen shut up and there was this wierd sort of eeling about it. You know kind of like breaking up from the school holidays. It was wierd. Hugged people. Ahh Denise said that she wouldn't have made it through the last week if I hadn't of beenthere and the same is true of her. I would have gone absolutely crazy if she hadn't of been at the perfume counter next to the kiosk. Annoyed Becki by saying it's Christmas again. lol and went home.

Really this weeks been quite cool. It's been alot of stress and hassle and stuff. But it's been cool.

Midnightness 4

Yep worked till midnight again last night. I didn't have to put the delivery out though. Thank God. I don't think I could have coped with that. There was only an ickle bit when I went in to take Helen off at 7. But that also meant that I had was with Nina for 3 hours. She has a habit of walking off and leaving me.

Erm had a part with Denise Paul and Lee at the front of the store. Lol.

It was Pauls last proper day. He's got another job. He's flood man Paul now. Idon't know what exactly he's going to be doing but It's something to do with floods.*shrugs* anyhoo I shall miss him.

At midnight I went to Kat "It's Chirstmas tomorrow" and she got all excited and stuff and I think we annoyed Becki. Well she threatened to not give either of us a lift home. Yep I got someone else to give me lift. Lol. Big thakies to Maria, Becki and Pete fr giving me lifts home this week. Although I think Pete just wanted to see my mums Pj's but that's a totally different story.

Midnightness 3

Yep I stayed till midnioght again. I'm the only person who has had to do allll of their midnights this week, everyone else has left early at least once. Not fair. Apparently Pete was asking Adrien if I could go home last night but Adrien said no. But then he could have gone at 9 if he wanted. Rachel says that I deserve to go home early, so I might be allowed tonight buuuuut I'm going to have to wait till midnight anyways coz becki is giving me a lift home and she'll be in till midnight so yeah.

I was in kiosk from 2. 10 hours in kiosk isn't funny. I wasn't supposed to go in there till Nil went home at 5:30 but Nina decided not to turn up till 5:30 and themn she kept walking off, she didn't seem to understand the fact that even though the kiosk wasn't busy I was. I had loads to do and I ended up being on my own half the time. Saying that I don't think she's turned up today, she's supposed to start at 1 and she wasn't in when I went in earlier. *shrugs* dunno.

Payday today. £700 and something. I have actually put some back. But then I also spent loads more that I was going to so yeah.

Work soon. Blah.

Midnightness 2

Yesterday I got up at like 9:30. Annoyed? Yes. I woke up and then I couldn't get back to sleep. Spent half the day sat in front of the computer while everyone else went to town several times.

Went to work. There were nine boxes of delivery. I mean yeah fine, if we didn't have anything then it would be ok but there's loads. So yeah I spent most of the night doing that. It went dead about 7:30 so me and Helen could do that and mess around erm work hard kind of.

I didn't serve anyone after 10 and read a magazine. Tracey shut me down at 11:30, but she sent Kat and Rach home so I had to stay coz Maria was, so she made me do cardboard, which meant going down to the warehouse which is scary late at night. : (

Once again Maria gave me a lift home.

I'm hoping Pete will let everyone go home early tonight again.

Payday tomorrow!

Midnightness well nearly

Worked til midnight last night. I was sooooooooooooooo bored. Me and Sam had put out the delivery by like 8 which meant there was nothing left to do.

I walked up and down in the kiosk for ages. I think I need to get a pedometer ting so that I know how far I've walked Lol.

Oh and the Lottery machine broke. I mean completely. I couldn't do the online reports and stuff that you're supposed to do at the end of the day. Oops I hope it's ok today, you know it being lottery night and stuff.

Maria gave me a lift home. I'm pretty much able to scab a lift every night from someone. Lol, Maria's govong me a lft home tonight and apparently Pete is tomorrow *shrugs* that's what mum told me a minute ago. And then Becky said she would give me one on Friday. But the if I wasn't out in the kiosk I would be allowed to go home early. : (

Oh well done to Kerry for passing her test. I wanted to go out for a drive with her and Jo but stupid work got in the way. It always does. Like tomorrow when I could be going drinking in Salisbury : (

I'm really hyper today. You know dispite going to bed at like 2 and getting up at like 9 this morning : \ I just couldn't sleep.

2005 Review

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? As a person, yeah I'd say so.

2) What was your favourite moment of the year?Jen birthday party and seeing everyone for the first time in ages. Being with the DCE Crew, Lol.

3) What was your least favourite moment of the year? Bob dying. That was.... not good? I dunno, he's the first person close to me really who has ever died.

4) Where were you when 2005 began? At Home

5) Who were you with?Erm prolly, mum dad and Bob.

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? At home prolly

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? Mum and dad? I dunno I'll prolly be sat in front of the computer

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? I dont think I actually made any

9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Not yet, but who knows.

10) Did you fall in love in 2005? Sadly no

11) If yes, with who?......

12) If yes, do they know?.............

13) Are you still in love with them?....................

14) Do regret it? What?

15) Did you break-up with anyone in 2005? No

16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? Yeah I'd say so.

17) What was your favourite month of 2005? June, I think.

18) Did you travel outside of the UK in 2005? No

19) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? Huh?

20) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005?Yes

21) Did you miss anybody in the past year? Yes

22) What was your favourite movie that you saw in 2005? Erm, for once I've actually seen quite a few. Erm, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory <3>

23) What was your favourite song from 2005? Erm thats quite hard actually. Erm... Crazy Chick- Charlotte Church (had to mention it) I Bruise Easily- Natahsa Bedingfield, Fix You Coldplay, All About You- McFly, just don't ask

24) What was your favourite album from 2005?X & Y- Coldplay <3>

25) How many concerts did you see in 2005?None : (

26) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?.......

27) Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005?Erm....... No? Well maybe a little

28) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? Nope

29) How many people did you kiss in 2005? o : (

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? None

31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? Not really

32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005? I dunno really

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? I dunno.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? I hope not

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? Not really.

36) How much money did you spend in 2005? Way too much

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?Erm being sent home from work coz I had a hangover, telling Kavin that he didn't like me, throwing up on Pete's shoes. Pretty much drink related things

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change it, whatwould it be? Ummm I dunno.

40) What are your plans for 2006? Get a "proper job" Save loads of moneydo some random course.

Birthdayness

Mums birthday today. Went into town with dad. Was alright actually. we normally argue when we go out together. Got mum a cake and stuff. Apart from that didn't do much else. Am lik uberly tired so fiddles knows how I'm going to cope with the rest of the week.

Tired

I am soo tired. I've worked like nearly 40 hours since Wednesday. Blah. Tomorrow off. Going to town with dad to get a cake and stuff. Should be interesting. *shrugs* Think I should prolly have an early night.

.....

Not alot has happened today. Did 10 hours. Was out in kiosk with Helen, that was fun. Lol. Adrien was in a good mood. Apparently I never shut up. Lol. Yeah tis about all really. I haven't got much to say really.

Fucking idiot

Yep that's what I am. What is the one thiong that I said I'd never do again? That I happen to be doing tomorrow? Yep that's right I am doing 10-8. Fucking idiot. Adrien, Maria and Becky all sort of ganged up on me and I kind of gave in. Yes you can slap me now. But it's not like it's a 15 hour shift. Petes doing 2 of them next week. Or 12 which Leona has been doing. Blah bullies.

In other news. There's not alot of other news actually. Today wasn't that busy. I worked. We were messing around and trying to do the splits and stuff. Yeah just a normal day at ASDA.

Kind of need to get another job I think.

Said I'd do it

Appearance

[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[]I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[X] I have had more than 2 piercings.
[] I have had piercings in places besides my ears.

Family/Home Life

[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[]I've been kicked out of the house.
[]My biological parents are together.
[]I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[] I'm in school.
[X] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something
[X] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[]I've had my pants rip/drop in public

Health

[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I've gotten stitches.
[] I've broken a bone.
[X] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[X] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.
[X] I've been to Florida
[] I've been on a cruise
[] I've been to an exotic island

Experiences

[] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star.
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole litre of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing
[X] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] I've eaten Sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[X] I'm single
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.
[] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[] I've consumed alcohol.
[X] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I've taken anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I'm addicted to self harm.
[] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[] I've planned my own suicide.
[] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[] I own over 5 hip hop CDs.
[] I own iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Hot Topic.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[] I can sing well.
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[] I open up to others easily.
[] I watch the news.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[X] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair
[] I have "x"s in my screen name
[] I love being neat
[] I love Spam SPAM SPAM SPAM!!!
[] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[X] I bake well.
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[] I would wear pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate
[X] I bite my nails.
[X] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X] I'm good at remembering names
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[X] My answers are totally honest.

Done it now. Happy?

Naughty corner

I was pt in the naughty corner today. I don't know why. Ok so it was till one but still. I was up out of the way with no one to talk to. : (

Woprk was ok actually. It wasn't as busy as I thought it would be really.

I'm going in at 1 tomorrow. *shrugs* I dunno. I should be in kiosk though so yeah.

I did some more of my ucas application. I know I should have done it by now buuut I kind of forgot. With all the different plans and stuff it kind of slipped my mind. Lol

Not alot really

I haven't really done aloy today. Got up. Dyed mums hair. Went to town. Brought some amazing Christmas socks with bells on lol.

Went into ASDA Lesley missed me even though I'd only been off today. Me and mum talked to Pete. Well she poked him an d started talking to him and I kind of caught up. Still thinks I'm a drunk. Maybe going out Christmas eve after work. Lol at 6. I'm going to end up really drunk. Oh and he's talked to Kat. Well kind of. Saw Kat and she told me that he'd talked to him, but only coz she didn't now where something was. Argh just kiss and make up pleeeeease.

Need to get mums birthday card at some point.

To hungover to come in

I woke up this morning with a perfectly clearhead I didn't even feel a little bit ill. I mean I was really expecting to. But I didn't I felt better than I do most mornings actually.

I got up did some bits and pieces. I got a phone call at 11:30. Unknown number. I was kind of expecting it to be my mum telling me to get up or Pete asking how my head was. But no Unknown number. Work. It's been a while since they've rung me. It was Lorraine. First question "how's your head?" "fine" So yeah she wanted to ask me if I wanted to go in at 12, no chance. I wouldn't make it there on time so no. So I said that I'd go in at one.

Lalala in the car, mum rings "you up then?" "No" "Oh I was just checking" "I'm on the way to work now" "What I thought you weren't in till two" *explains about phone call* Mum hangs up, phone starts ringing again- Pete. "I hear you were too hungover to come in at 12" "What no I wasn't" "That's what I heard" "Erm no"

I go in and bump into Kat together. We go downstairs and then into the canteen. Caroline and Racheal both ask me how my head is. What? Fine. Then I gotcalled a piss head by both of them. Turns out Lorraine had told everyone that I sounded rough on the phone and was too hungover to go in at 12. Er no.

I go up Aidrien had obviously got out of the wrong side of the bed and was being more miserable than usual. I was sent out to the kiosk. Turns out Nina had called in sick and thats why they wanted me ijn earlier. Why there were plenty of kiosk trained people in, why call me?

So yeah spent a while in there. Pete came out to activate the scratch cards coz no one else knew how to. He showed me but I can't remember now. He wouldn't believe that I was fine. What ever.

Nina came in at about 4 and asked if they thought that they would let her go home early. How about no? She'd already come in late. Would it really have been worth it for a couple of hours, I mean I could have just stayed in there but no, I went back out on checkouts. Took Judith off the Kat took me off for a break. Went back up on my till then Kat came and took me off again to do Ninas break then I went on a different till and The Lindie took me off for my break. It all got pretty confusing after that.

Aidrien had asked Becky to get someone to move aload of stuff at the front of checkouts. You know like mini fridges and stuff so me and Lee started doing that. Then Becky asked me to do putbacks then gave me the phone and then I was doing put backs and running at the same time which was a pain in the ass. I mean It would have been fine but Lindie and Jodie are under 18 and I had to keep authorising their alcohol and stuff and the always called when I was nowhere near checkouts. So my feet hurt now. Lol. But I got them done and stuff.

I'm betting I get a phone call sometime tommorw coz Nina said she's not going to go in. And when in doubt who do you call? That's right, me! I just hope it's not Aidrien who calls coz I'll ened up saying yes if it is.

Fake Potatoes

Last night was the checkouts Christmas meal.

Got a phone call at 6:30 "where are you?" "Ummmm at home" Crap frogot to cancel the bus, well Angela offerered me a lift after I'd put my name down for the bus. Oops. So yeah Pete got the bus alone with Carol and Rachel.

I got a lift with Angela, she got lost finding my house. She only lives around the corner. Lol. We went and picked up Katy and got lost. And then got lost on the way to Westbury coz there was a diversion.

Lol got there sat down got up got drinks. Me and Helen of course drank grape juice! With a little bit of apple juice. Lol.

It was quite fun really we all had a laugh and stuff. The food was better than I thought it would be. The only thing was that the roastpotatoes weren't "proper" ones. Lol. Yeah they were frozen ones. Fake ones as I would tell Aaron. You just don't expect that really.

Yeah so Part way through Helen comes up on the way to the loo and goes to me "Your'e going to Chicago Rock aren't you?" "wha? huh? I am?" "Yeah, I said you would anyway" Um okkkkkk. Then Pete comes up and announces that if anyone wants to go to Chicago Rock they have to get the bus at 10:30 so that they can get in. When he got asked who was going my name was listed. What? I never said that I would. But apparently I had no choice, charming!

So yeah we got our secret santa presents, I got a bag, it's quite a nice bag but yeah, I kind of wanted something rude. Sue got a Christmas thong which she put on her head and didn't take off even when we went into Chicago Rock. Lol

So yeah got on the bus, histerical laughter all round mainly at Sue's laugh. Lol it'[s really funny.

Went in to Chicago and Pete remembered that I owed hima drink. He then decides we should do shots. Lol. We couldn't decide what though so we were asking the barmaid for random shots. Lol we ened up with some pretty foul ones. But yeah she ened up going "Does it matter what it is?" foolishly I said "no" and we ened up with a shot of port. Urgh it was disgusting.

We were stood there waiting to be served and me and Kirsty were talking and for some reason she goes "are you not old enough then? I'll get your drinks if you want" Lol, yes I am and I think you've sold me alcohol before. Then me and Rachel and Pete were talking about birthdays and Pete was going on about his 21st and I was lik "Your'e going to be ollllllllllld" and he goes "so are you" "no I'm not, not as old as you anyways" "Yeah you are, you're what? 19? 20?" "18" "Oh shit, really?" Wft? I have one person thinking I'm like 17 and one thinking I'm 20. Huh?

I ended up not talking to Pete and he started texting me. Idiot, we were stood right next to each other. Wasting my text messages damnit.

I was going to share a taxi with Rachel but she went early and the it was 12 when they called time so I called mum and she came down. Lol everyone was all worried that I was going to be walking on my own ahh. Pete and Helen seemed to think I was really drunk and so walked me to the car and Pete warned my mum I might be sick. Asshole I wasn't even that drunk. Then he was like "text me when you get home to let me know you got home ok" wtf? My mum is driving it's not like I'm walking on my own or getting in a taxi with some odd man. But I kind of didn't text him. So I got one about half an hour later asking if I got home ok.

But yeah it was a pretty good night.

Finding my own way

Looking back on memories
Thinking how things used to be
Is it me or was it simple then?

If I stumble if I fall
Would you help me up at all
Take me in let me come home again

Will someone tell me how life should be
Understand me but let me be me

I’m just finding me own way in my own sweet time
If I’m making a mistake at least it’s mine
If I travel down a different road to the one that you would take
I’m just finding my own way
If you ever see me cry

Don’t you worry I’ll be fine
I know you only want what’s best for me

It may be a long way home
But the path I take’s my own
I’m not waiting for my destiny

Will someone hold me when I’m lonely
Understand me but let me be me

And if you found me all alone
Would you lend a helping hand
And all I need from you my friend
Is for you to understand
And if you would be my comforter
-someone to love
Then you’d help me find my way

I dunno I was just listening to it and it kind of fit in a way.

Sundayness

Roday was ok. Me and Lydia spent most of the day talking about a load of crap really. It wasn't that busy and stuff. I got sent out into kiosk at the end of the day to help nina though : ( Ii'm covering her shift for her on Thursday 4:30-9 Yeah s'ok.

Christmas meal tonight. Angelas going to give me and Katy a lift so yeah. Only going to drink grape juice though!

Saturdayness

I went in at 10 I finished at 6. Isn't it amazing? Sue asked me if I'd stay on, after I had finished and was getting some stuff. How about no?

Angelas giving me a lift tomorrow so I don't have to get the bus plus that means that I'll end up spending less time drinking. Lou said something about going out for a drink after but I don't know if I will. Hopefullt Pete will forget that I owe himn drinks.

Going wrong?

I'm so excited, it's bound to all go wrong.

Playing piggy in the middle isn't fun when someone feels bad. It's not fair.

Impossible?

Went shopping this morning. Brought a coat..... I needed one.

Was banished from the card shop so that my parents could buy me a Christmas card so I went and walked around and they told me that they were in ASDA and so I went in, they weren't there. Rang them and they weren't there anyways grr.

Spent ages talking to Pete about stuff, like the fact that I got a text at 1 this morning telling me that he has a new number. Great thanks, and it couldn't wait til morning because..... But apparentkly he sent a load at about 6ish and none of them went through till like 1. Lol. And then of course theres the whole Kat thing. It feels like I'm playing piggy in the middle. I still haven't told her that I've talked to him about it. I can't. Anyhoo she cancelled her Christmas meal and he wanted to know if it was beacuse of him, it turns out it's not but still.

Work was ok. Me, Lydia and Kat were sat on express talking to each other, they invited me to go travelling with them the year after next. I'm going to go. It's something I want to do, I just don't want to do it on my own. And now I won't have to. It's kind of scary, 7 months, around the world. Only thinsg is I have to SAVE £1000 by about April so that we can buy tickets. Then I have to save after that. And I need a passport, but that's the easy part. But yeah I really want to, I'm just going to have to deffer my uni application, which I really must finish.

But yeah me and Lydia were talking about naked surfers and Anita came and asked me to do putbacks so I did that and then did cardboard and talked to everyone up the checkouts. So yeah not a bad day really.

Christmas Hours

The week before Christmas I am working:

• Tuesday- 5:30- 12
• Wednesday- 5:30- 12
• Thursday- 2-12
• Friday- 4-12
• Saturday- 10-6

Yeeeeeep me and Becki were going through the rotas earlier, we'd both finished and we were there co-ordinating hours. She's working til 12 Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, she said that she'd give me lifts home and stuff. I'm in closing kiosk every night so I'll like sit on the floor and read magazines and stuff, it'll be fine.

I can't believe I have to work all day Christmas eve. It's contracted. Aidrien said that if it get's quiet then we'll draw lots to see who can go home. But unless they get someone else who can run in Becki'll have to stay so she says that if she has to I have to, and I might guess wheres empty? Yep kiosk so yeah.

Double discount

Today was double discount day and it was absolutely manic in store. The thing is it wasn't really colleaugue that were in store and that's whatyou would have expected. It was normal people. They were everywhere.

I went in and took Chrissi off for her break and about ten minutes later Sara one of the managers comes up to me and tells me that she needs to take me off for about 30 seconds so that I can go and help someone do something inthe kiosk coz they don't know what they're doing. The someone turned out to be Lou. She didn't know how to do the daily play thing. Anyhoo I ened up in there for nearly 2 hours so yeah, and then it turned out that the people who were supposed to be outin the kiosk were in on tills. But that was ok me and Trudie were having fun out there.

Erm went ona till had my break, brought some alcohol, Pete was quite mean when I did, he was behind Ally and he was going on about how I want a drip for alcohol so that it goes straight into my blood. I didn't even buy that much so :P.

Went back on a till, I had this one customer and we were talking about the cost of Christmas and she was like "you want to get yourself a rich boyfriend, ask Sant for one." Lol. Yeah ok.

Went on a break. Spoke to Pete for Kat. *pulls face* not good there. He really isn't happy. Kat feels sooo bad about it as well. And now I feel bad beacuse I'm going to have to tell her that he doesn't particularly like her at the moment. Why did I have to talk to him for her? Why not someone else? I don't know what to do with that one.

Went back up, Anita gave me the phone coz she was pissed off with it going off constantly like it had been. She still feels bad after Sunday night. Lol. Did that for about five minutes and then did Pauls break.

Went back on a different till. Served loads of staff. And Lynnette shit me early so that she could go and buy some glasses from another store with double discount. Fine suits me, but then there were loads of people still walking around.

Oh well I have like a 2hour shift tomorrow. Lol, that should be interesting.

Piccies

Here's my piccies from Sunday night.

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Katy isn't going. She's lost her phone and her purse. : (

I can't decide which top to wear.

Not so manic Sunday

Today wasn't that busy really. I really expected it to be. Katy was in. Yay. So we sat and talked for most of the day, like we did before. It was nice.

Go in with Mel, coz zhe's back, and Sheila asks me if I've heard anything from Pete. Noooo. I really don't know why she expects me to know all this Pete related stuff.

Not really much to say about today. There was more talk about me getting really drunk tonight. Even from people who have never seen me drunk or been told about my drunkness as far as I know, so yeah.

I'm still not sure what I'm going to wear tonight, erm. I'm meeting Katy, Angela and hopefully Kat at 8:15. That's if Kat shows up. She didn't/ doesn't want to go coz she thinks Pete hates her. Lol. Last night she called him a loser, yeah fine, but he took it really badly apparently and is being and asshole. Yeah so hopefully she'll come.

Why?

Why is it that whenever there is something involving alcohol coming up it's assumed that I'llget really drunk, and then some reference made to me being an alcoholic an drunk or me throwing up on Pete's shoes? I mean I'm not that bad.

So when I went into work I went down on express. Lalalalala, Me Rachel, Racheal and Lydia were all sat there talking and Racheal decided that I was going to get really drunk and do karaoke and I won't........ do karaoke anyways, no garentee of the drunkness. Anyhoo we were having one of those really silly arguements, you know thet "will" "won't" "will will will" "wion't won't won't" ones. The customers were looking at us all funny and stuff. Blah to you. You know and then it got on to the whole shoe thing. Why? It was Lydia who brought it up. She always does.

Anyhoo today wasn't too bad, it was pretty quiet for most of the day actually. I stayed on express till about 5:30 and then took Lacy off for her break which she took forever on and her till was a mess I hate that. Me and Judith were ranting about it earlier. Lol. Anyhoo then I went and took Racheal off. Me and Sue were stood there deciding who I should take off and I was trying to avoid the tills up the top coz they're always uberly busy so she made Lacy go up there. Lol. Then about 10 minutes later I went on a break.


Came back from my break and did Barbaras. She had no notes in her till basically so I got annoyed at that. Oh and I was serving someone and theyhad a small bottle of Baileys and the bigger ones are cheaper so I asked them if they wanted that instaed and so I called Sue Sue got me one and I was like "I want one of these" and Sue was like "Ii don't think you should" and then tells the customer that me and alcohol don't mix. And then the customer was like "Are you over 18 then?" Lol yeah. Do I really look under? Not to most people.

So Barbara came back and I started to help Lee do put back and then Lee got put back on a till and so I had a massive trolley to put back on my own, yeah that's fair! Anyhoo I ened up spending half the time chatting but everything was put away.

If I was doing that then I prolly would have asked to go and help Andrew on H and L. He was all on his own. He asked for help but he wasn't allowed any, same happened to Pete the week before and he wasn't allowed any either. Anyhoo Pete should have been there but he left early. I was coming back from my second break and I was walking up by customer services and Sheila randomly goes to me "did you know Pete went home early?" "No" "Yeah his mums ill again, his dad rang in and so he went" His mums been ill for a while but she was getting better. But yeah what I don't really understand is, why would I know he'd gone? why would I need to? He's not even on our department anymore so I'm slightly confussed about the whole telling/asking me about it thing.

Anyhoo workies tomorrow. There's loads of people in so it should be ok. And then the party. :S Not sure what I'm going to wear yet. Oh well.

Thingy

What have you done... BE TRUTHFUL!

1. smoked a cigarette - Nope

2. smoked a cigar - No

3. crashed a friends car - No

4. stolen a car - No

5. loved someone - No

6. been dumped - Yeah

7. taken shots of alcohol - Erm........ no?

8. been fired - Nope

9. been in a fist fight - No

10. snuck out of your house?- No actually

11. had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yeah

12. been arrested - Nope

13. made out with a stranger - no

14. gone on a blind date - No

15. lied to a friend - Yeah, not big ones or the sort that'd hurt someone

16. had a crush on a teacher - No

18. seen someone die - No

19. been on a plane - Yep

20. danced on a bar - No

22. miss someone right now - Yeah

23. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by- Yep

24. made a snow angel - Yes

25. played dress up - Yeah

26. cheated while playing a game - No I'm a good girl............

27. been lonely - Yeah

28. fallen asleep at work/school - No

29. used a fake ID - No

30. felt an earthquake - No, I did that earth quakey thing at the natural history musseum
though

31. touched a snake - Yes, a huge massive one. It had its head on my head, there was a picture
somewhere

32. ran a red light - No

33. had detention - Yeah

34. been in a car accident - No

35. hated the way you look - Yeah

37. been lost - Yeah

38. been to the opposite side of the country - Huh?

39. felt like dying - Yeah I suppose

40. cried yourself to sleep - Yes

41. played cops and robbers - Yeah

42. karaoke - No and I'm not doing it tomorrow either

43. done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes. All the time.

44. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yeah, Not recently

45. caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yep

47. sang in the shower - Yeah

48. made love in a park? No,

49. had a dream that you married someone? Yeah, I have some weird dreams sometimes

50. glued your hand to something - Maybe

51. Had sex within the last 2 weeks? - No

52. worn the opposite sex's clothes - Yeah

53. been a cheerleader? - No

54. sat on a roof top - Yeah

55. talked on the phone all night? No

56. ever too scared to watch a scary movie alone? Yeah

57. played chicken? Yeah

58. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No

59. been told you're hot by a complete stranger? No

60. broken a bone - Nope

Umm......

I really don't know what to say about today. I haven't done alot really. I'm not starting til 12 tomorrow. Lou asked me yesterday. Firstly she wanted me to do 10-8, no, 12-8? ok. I don't mind doing 12-8. Yep that's about it.

Oh and remind me to never let Kat and Laura speak to each other again.

Today.

So yeah went into town, brought my secret santa present. Me and mum went into the sex shop by Woolworths, every thing was too expensive there. Loo roll guy saw us come out. He was just there looking at us : / I brought two jumpery things and one of those odd short cardigan things which I didn't really like until I saw that one.

Went to work. Went in and took Chrissi off. Knew I was going to. Judith told me that I had to earlier when I went in so that we could sit and talk. But then she went home and me and Sue were sat there talking to each other. She's having a fetish party at some point over the next couple of weeks. She hasn't brought a rude present for her secret santa person : ( the we were both sat there sing with these tassely things on our heads. Lol.

I got my break from monday today too. Well that was just great! I didn't need the break, it was all about the pricipal of it all. Yep. Me and Rachel were sat there talking like we do, well complaining mainly. When I told her about it she was just kind of "well lets not have breaks all week and we'll just have them all on one day" Lol it does kind of feel like that though. Oh well.

Anita managed to talk me into doing loads of overtime too. Next week I'm doing:

• Monday: 2-8
• Tuesday: 12-8
• Wednesday: 12-2
• Thursday: 3-9
• Friday: 2-10

Yep Idiot strikes again. And yes I'm doing a two hour shift on Wednesday, just don't ask.

Anyhoo day off tomorrow. Yeeeep.

Oh my cousin pregnant again. You know the one that had a baby like 7 months ago. The 15 year old. Well she's three months pregnatn agaian. Yeah. She's been taken into care. My uncle is an idiot. Oh and apparently he's "in a relationsip" witha 15 yeah old. He is just fucked up.

Yeah so that's about it I think.

Oh and hahahahaha Pete's in the Wiltshire Times and he looks silly and I'm going to take the piss out of him. Lol.

Errr

I feel better today. Yay. Still not great but better than yesterday.

Haven't really done much today except work. I started watching Madagascar but started doing something else so yeah.

Work was quite crappy. It was really busy and stuff so yeah. Sues back, she went to America for like 2 weeks or something. I was stood by the podium and she was like "Naooooomi" in an overly cheery voice. She was just too happy to be back at work.

There's a really odd blokey who keeps coming to my till. He's nice and stuff just abit odd. Yeah.

I'm getting a Lotto promo tee. Nila told me, she said that beause I do kiosk she's getting me one too, you know even though I'm not a proper kiosk person. I bet none of the people who aren't contracted kiosk don't get one, coz I'm special. Yeeeeep. Lol.

I really need to pay the rest of my meal coz otherwise I won't be allowed to go, you know even though I prolly won't eat half of the food. I'm just going to get drunk and be the fool. I feel so sorry for all the other people in there, it's only a small place and there's going to be 36 of us and alcohol and rude presents. I need to get my ticket of the oparty as well. Blah.

I don't have work till 3 tomorrow. I need to tidy my room and stuff I think, it's getting a bit messy.

I really can't think of anythiong left to say.

Erm

• Went shopping this morning, I brought Madagascar, I wanted one with the activity set but they didn't have any : (
• Went to work.
• Anita kept asking how I was coz I've not been all cheery and stuff.
• Me and Racheal were talking about last night and Saturday and stuff and how the managers really mess stuff up. Once again seemed abit unhappy about the fact that I won't be in on Friday.
• Anita shut me down at eight on the dot. I was the only one. She told me to go home and get some sleep so that I'd feel better.
• A stone fell out f my ring too. Not happy. So yeah. Great.

Ill

I'm ill. It's just a cold or something but that doesn't ake things any better. So yeah I feel like crap.

Annoyed at Aidrien again. 5 hours without a break. Not amused. He said he'd make it up to me, yeah what ever.

Yeah taht about covers it.

Oh it snowed and I got really excited and all the customers looked at me funny.

And.........

Here are my millions of pictures from Friday night.





See told you there was loads.

Grading

So today was Laura's kickboxing grading. I had the day off coz she made me book if ages ago, she didn't even know if she would be grading or not so yeah.

It was ok. It took forever though because there were loads of people who needed to do it. Laura was in the last group because they did the higher belts last.

But yeah she did really well and she has a purple belt now, which is a lush colour butthat's not the point.

Since then me and Laura watched Alladin and played Monopoly.

That's about it really.

Oh and I love the book I'm reading at the moment. Twilight Children by Torey Hayden. Tis really good. I've nearly finished it and suprisingly enough my mum hasn't started nagging me to finish so that she can read it. Lol

Yes I am happier today and this entry has been less rantish and alot shorter, yesterdays was reeeeeeeeaaaaaallllllllly long. But yeah, if you managed to read all of it well done.

ARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH

I am so pissed off. I really am. I mean what is the point of IDing someone if your manager is just going to overide you on it? I mean we're having all this training about "challenege 21" and being told that we would be supported if we decided to decline someone alcohol if they didn't produce ID when asked, but no. I do that, they go complain and they get the alcohol. Argh. That make it pointless even asking for ID. Yes and I have ranted to about 6 people since this happened at about 7:30. Mum said that I should go and talk to someone about it and Pete suggested I go to Stuart who's the GSM and so rules the land of ASDA Trowbridge.

Oh and some woman complained about me this earlier because I wouldn't serve her on express when she had a trolley full of stuff. SDhe got really assy with me and took my name. I was polite;y asking her to go to a bigger checkout and all that and she went "but what are you doing?" Argh (yes I am going to say that lots in this entry) I hate people like that.

Oh and I got the mystery shopper this month. It was the other week. I got 77.something% which is a hell of alot better than last month, the only thing they weren't happy with was the fact I got distracted by the person behind me. So yeah that could have been anyone.

So yeah last night. I was supposed to meet lydia at 9:30 but she was late so I ened up going down to the party with Lee. It was odd I expected loads more people to be there but yeah. We got ID'd as we went in and if we were 18 we got an orange wristband, which were really uncomfortable.

The ASDA lot all seemed to hang around the bar where as the other were on or near the dance floor. I managed to get Pete to buy me a drink so now for some reason I owe him three, which I'm really confised about coz I only owed him one so yeah. There was alot of talk about how I threw up on Pete's shoes, yeah great.

Everyone sort of came and went. Anita was really drunk by the time she got there and I hate to think what she was like in the morning. I drank about 3 and a half drinks before I just kind of gave up, I didn't want to drink, plus they were overly expensive. I got really tired and fed up and I jusdt wanted to go home. So I did at about 11:45.

Then I got a text asking me if I was going to Chicago Rock, from Pete. Now that just confused me coz I've never given him my number so I had no idea how he got it. Anyhoo I didn't go coz I really wasn'tin the mood. He kept texting me til like 1 in the morning. Yeah I'm at home and I'm not going.
Wokr up this morning. Watched Bridget Jones 2 coz I brought the box setty thing yesterday.

Went to work at 12. Picked up my wage slip and gift card. I got taxed £118 altogether, annoyed? yes. Went up did Haley's lunche she was gone for over an hour, but she had to go to the monthly meeting and wasn't just taking the piss. I didn't want her to come back really I was quiet happy talking to Maria. Her cars been written off, they've taken the courtesy car back, she can't get a new car till the insureance money comes through and she gave Pete my number last night. Apparently he texted her asking for it and she got confused.

Then Aidrien sent me out to the kiosk so I went out and Helen and Nat were both there, so I went back and told Aidrien and he then tells me that I'm supposed top be doing Helens break. You knwo it would be useful if he could tell me this beofre hand. He did it again at about 7, he just told me to go out to the kiosk. Well actually he came and shut me down and said "kiosk", he's such a great conversationalist. One of my customers today actually told me he was a miserable wanker. Yep I'll agree with that. He poked his tongue out at me too. You just don't do that unless you're allowed. He's not. Ok so everyone else does it. It doesn't mean he can.

I got stuck up on til 2 as well. Not amused by that. It's the one everyone goes to coz they can't be bothered to walk further down where there are other checkouts.

I had to wait 4 hours for my first break. Not happy about that, They were supposed to have been sorting that out. I know it's busy ona Saturday but still if the runners can get poeple's breaks done one time why can't the managers? Then I had my second one at 7:30 yes and what is the point of that?

Really and truely I don't think I was needed. They had all new poeple on ceckouts till 8 why did they need me? So yeah when I came back I stood around for a bit, helped Claire do a couple of put backs "helped" Pete with the newspapers and ranted to Rachel about customers and Aidrien I love ranting to her cozx she usually agrees with me. Yep a very productive fifteen minutes. Oh and I helped my mum "find" the fruit juice. She told Pete off for texting me at 1 in the morning, he said he didn't know what he was doing then coz he was really drunk, but he did want me to go to Chicargo Rock. Okkkkkkkkkkkk

You no what? I have never been glader that I'm not in tomorrow.

Sorry about all the ranting. Oh and there are a couple of pictures from last night and I mean a couple.

Hair Today

So I got my hair cut this morning. Kat was there when I went in and me and her were chatting away. Kat left and my hairdresser person was tralking about how I know Kat and her party and stuff and Kat out drinking Pete, and guess what Kat told her, Yep, that I fancy Pete. Argh. No. So yeah, erm heres a picture of my hair which is a bit odd my hair looks crappy in it so yeah.



Went into town and surisingly I didn't actually spend that much money. Just like in ASDA really, where I like spent £30 somehing pounds, coz I brought the Bridget Jones box set. I didn't get my wage slip coz that would have meant going downstairs and I'm lazy, we have to sign for them this month coz they have our gift cards attatched so yeah.

Erm my secret santa is Rosemary. I found the perfect thing I think. But yeah. It's quite easy to get who theirs is out of some people. I don't know who's got me but I;m not so worried anymore coz I know it's not Pete coz that wouldn't have been good.

Work was ok last night actually. Rachel seemed saf that I wouldn't be in tonight. I think she's syuck with mainly newbies so yeah.

Tired

I really can't be bothered, I'm so tired. I'm going to go to bed I think. I might blog properly tomorrow. Night.

Hmmmm

So yeah the fridge man came this morning. Our fridge has been making funny noises and well it's not normal so we're going to be gettinga new one. Just as long as it doen't come at 7 in the monring this time I don't care.

Erm yeah that was basically it this morning.

Went to work. Did Chritas break , she came back and I was plonked ona till and that's where I stayed. Me and Ally spent half the time chatting because it wasn't that busy.

Caroline came in and I served her. She told me that we're having a secret Santa at the Christmas meal. Great. I dread to think who I'm going to get. Prolly someone really hard to buy for. Ahhh. I'll find out tomorrow.

Anita came round and tried to get me to do more work. First she asked if I was working Friday, no I'm not allowed Kat said. She said I could work in the morning and I'm like, no I'm having my hair cut. I wasn't sure what time coz mum made the appointment today, for 12 on Friday. But yeah Lou wanted me to do 8-4, erm no I don;t do 8 oclocks anymore. Anyhoo I need to do some shopping. Then she asked me if I'd stay on on Saturday and I was like only if I can come in later, so I am. I'm going in at 12. So yeah hopefully I shouldn't be hung over at all then.......... Maybe.

I went on my break quite early and I went down and me and Emma were sat there and Jan comes along and was all like "hello Naomi" in a really, I want something sort of voice. But she didn't want anything. Weird. She said Maria's still waiting to find out whether they're going t write her car off, which after seeing the pictures of it I think they will.

Erm went back up me and Ally talked some more. It was quite fun really until Anita came and took Ally away to do Lydias break, well she asked which one of us wanted to but I was quite happy sat doing nothing and stuff so Ally went and I had no one to talk to.

Then when she did come back Lou shut me down to go and do the monthly meeting, which is about the whole "challenge 21" thing. The video was so stupid. Me and Barbara spent the time talking, on topic though which was a suprise.

We went back upstairs and I ened up really hyper. I went back on my till and the Anita came and asked me if I wanted to go do the rest of the putbacks. She shut me down and as I was bagging up a customer came up to her and complained about one of the new girls, so I had to go and take her off so that Anita could talk to her about it. It was quite funny coz me, Anita and Nick were all stood behind her before I took her off and that must have been really scary, I had the giggles and I think Nick thought I'd been drinking. Lol

So yeah new girl and Anita come back and Anita's like "I have another job for you aren't you special?" erm not really but anyhoo. New girl takes me off again and Anita hands me the phone. Ok so yeah it was five minutes and I had two calls. One of which was Lydia and when I got then she'd worked out what to do.

Anita came back and I walked up and down to look for customers. She decided that I should stay and serve anyone who was hiding coz I told her no one was there. That was abit mean.

Then me and mum went and got a Chinese. Not really done alot since then.