Peace of me.

Well I've spent the morning doing nothing. What a suprise. I woke up at like 10:30. No one was home. Yeah coz I can get to college now.

I've spent the morning on the computer trying to do my CV. Trying of course being the opperative work. I haven't got very far. I was listening to Natasha Bedingfields album. It's really good. I loove it.

Anyways. I was listening to one of the songs and I was like "thats me" It is so true.

"Fitting in 'cause I was driven
Saying yes when I meant no
Holding on, should've let go"

It's me. I think I've always tried to fit in. Just because. Because its easy. Well no it's not but ya know.

I can't say no. I always say yes. Look at all the over time I've done over the past week. I say yes so that I don't let people down. So that I can please them. Even if I know that maybe its not the best thing for me to do.

I hold onto everything. I realise this morning that I have too much junk I have nowhere to put anything. Seriously. I need storage. And lots of it. That is why my rooms a mess because I have nowhere to put everything. I keep stuff for the sake of keeping it not because I need it. I think I need to hold on to things. But I said this before.

I don't know. I can't do anything. Everything gets messed up in my head and I get distracted. To all the teachers and stuff I'm still a model student. They never seem to relise that I struggle they just assume that I'm fine.

I hate people who assume stuff. It pisses me off.

Oh and I've just remembered that I said fuck alot on Saturday. Oops

This has taken me half an hour to write.